Friday, August 9, 2013

3 #PalmsUp What is Holding Me Back?

The first thing that comes to mind is that I am selfish! I want to do what I want to do, when I want to do it!  I want my time to be my time!  What a revelation!

I do love to study God's Word, but I like to do other things too.  I guess I just need to find a balance.  Maybe that's what God wants me to do right now.

Right now I am feeling very disorganized, in my home and spiritually. I really want a place for everything and everything in its place. I love to create, but right now my space to craft (craft room) has been invaded by my oldest son, (God  bless him) who is here temporarily.  Well it has been a year now, since he came to stay. But, he can stay as long as he needs.  Our door is always open to our children, when they need help.

I have not yet completed anything; all the OBS studies I have started (although I have finished reading the books for the last two OBS), all the crafts I have started, all the health activities I have started.  I see a pattern here. Do you?

I have asked God to please tell me what to do to get this fixed; to get balance in my life.  I've tried to physically organize my things, but nothing is working. I need to finish everything I've started. "God, please show me what to do."

In Palms. 19:7-11 One New Man Bible (ONMB) says:  (my rendition) God is the thread that pulls my life together. He knows what is hidden in my heart.  (He convicts me and corrects me.) God's Word is perfect: it restores my inner being. It shows me the right way to live and the direction I should go.  His plans are easy to follow. His Word enlightens.  God is to be reverenced.  He endures forever.  God's Word is worth more than anything I give a value to.

These are some promises of God's Word I get from this passage.
1.  It is complete. - Nothing is left undone.
2.  It pulls my life together. - Gives me balance.
3.  It is easy to understand. - Enlightens me.
4.  It guides me. - Shows me how I should live.
5.  It is worth more than anything I value.

So, for me, it is selfishness! I am afraid of loosing me and my desires.  Afraid I won't be able to do the things I like to do because there won't be any time left to do them.  That is what has been holding  me back from going deeper in to my relationship with God.

Heavenly Father, Please forgive me.  Help me overcome this. Help me find the balance you have for my life. In Jesus name, let it be so.

Wednesday, April 10, 2013

What Is the Real Problem?

Here is my first post on the OBS blog hop. I wrote this in the wee hours of the night Wed. night because I know that tomorrow will be a busy day for me.  I hope it is not too lengthy.  And I hope I have posted the correct link to bring you here.  Well, if you made here, my link worked. lol

"I knew I needed to make a conscious and determined commitment to God, My faith and myself...  If I wanted true lasting change to occur, I needed to focus on changing me first." pg 20 of Stressed -Less Living 

This quote hit home to me! That is where I am.  I have been just accepting life as it came along lately. (Well maybe several years now.) I never have a day when I don't feel physical pain in my body.  I can't get too active because of my physical problems. I find that I hate to go to bed at night, but of course I do, and then I hate getting up in the morning.  I feel pain and depression more than peace and joy.  Oh what a way to live!  Well not any more!

Before I had started this online Bible study, I had decided that I needed to commit myself to getting closer to God and getting what I need from him and stop feeling sorry for myself and hoping the next day will be better.  I have been doing some soul searching and I don't know if I can pin point where it all began, but I do know that it didn't happen overnight.  So the changes I need to make will not happen overnight either.  

And so, here I stand at the threshold of my new beginning.  I am spending the day with my God everyday,from this point on and renewing my mind in His word,  nourishing my spirit along the way.  I am finding promises with in the pages that I can hold onto and claim as mine.  I am building my faith as I read aloud because it does say that faith comes by hearing the word of God.  

I am learning I can go from the stress zone to the faith zone by:
1.  allowing God's promises to seep into every once of my being.
2.  realizing I am the only person who has control over my mind.
3.  realizing I am the only person who has authority over the joy in my heart.
4.  realizing I am the only person who can determine my attitude on any given day.
5.  I can choose to be an optimist, despite negative circumstances.
6.  I can make the decision to live life on purpose, as God intended. and not to just simply be alive. 
7.  realize I am the only person who can control how stressed I feel. 

And that my friends is just the tip of the iceberg of the nutritious morsels in this chapter.  I am going to spend time working on the Reflection Questions tomorrow morning.  I may blog on that too. We shall see.  Meanwhile, I pray that God's love shines upon you all and that you rest peaceful as you sleep.  Good night all.

Sunday, April 7, 2013

Day One Stressed-Less Living

This is my study station.  It is in my bedroom where I can close the door and shut out the "world"; while I spend quality time with my Lord.  Yes that is snow you see outside my window.  It is all that remains of the winter of 2012/13.  I thank God spring is here.  I am not too hip on the mud in my driveway, but this too shall pass.
 I have a few Bibles I will be using along with the book Stressed-Less Living.  The Bible you see in this picture is called Complete Jewish Bible.  I love this Bible!  It can be a challenge to read the names because they are written in Hebrew, but it does have a dictionary in the back so I can look up the names and see the English translation.  I am also using my other favorite Bibles, the NIV and the NKJV Spirit Filled Life Bible.  I am looking forward to learning all that I can from this Bible study.  It could not have come at a better time in my life.  Isn't God awesome! His timing is always perfect!
I will be trying very hard to stay on task through out this 12 week study.  And I want to also create posts on this blog and learn how to share them with everyone doing this OBS.
Meanwhile I pray for everyone involved in this OBS; for our minds to be open to understand God's Word. But, most of all for our hearts to be open to receive the Word of God as seeds of life as we bond ever closer to our Lord. God bless us all as we take this journey together.

commitment renewal

I'm not sure what I want to say here.  I got so far behind in my Let It Go OBS that I didn't post anything else so that I could get caught up on my reading.  I believe I shall do this OBS over again in the future.  For now all I can say is that I surely need this new Study called Stressed -Less Living by Tracie Miles. 
Although they may all be for a good cause, I have a tendency to try to get involved in too many things.  And that is my "excuse" for not finishing the last OBS.  

I have decided that the new OBS is going to be a number one priority for the next 12 weeks.  I am still attending a local Bible study every other week and attending my church.  With God's help I will get through this OBS and grow spiritually.  

And so today I pledge to God and myself to stay in a daily relationship with Him and the others in this OBS.  I know that my schedule can change from week to week but I will try to stay on task and up to date on each week of this OBS.

Monday, February 11, 2013

What I take away from Week One: Let It Go

        I am learning a lot already in this first week of Let It Go.  I am more aware of how bossy I can be.  Why just the other day, I caught myself rattling orders to my husband about a situation concerning his job.  We couldn't go to church on Sunday because my husband had to work!  He had to go help others plow out the bus yard and to clean off the buses, as they clean up after the Noreaster we got on Friday and Saturday.  I did apologize to my husband for my attitude and bossiness.  He knows far too well how much I need this study!
        I am learning that like Jesus, I can have the plumb line "will this bring my heavenly Father glory?" (Does it make God famous to those around me?)  In each situation I need to ask myself, IS THIS A TOOL, A TOY, OR A TANGENT?  I need to see the big picture decision just as Jesus did, so that I can bring God the glory and so those little decisions will fall in line and take care of themselves. We've all heard the expression: "Don't sweat the small stuff." I think that applies here.
        I love what Karen said in Chapter 2 (my kindle does not show page numbers).  "Just as Jesus' life was about obedience to God, love of others, and service, so should ours.  So we must intentionally put in place guidelines that will help us maintain the proper perspective and like Jesus, keep our mission ever in sight. As a result we end up glorifying God and making Him famous, not just feeding our own wishes and desires and controlling people and circumstances to our liking. while we attempt to exist in our crazy-busy, clamoring culture."  
        I want to recognize God's voice apart from the worlds and my own.  So that I can trust Him with my entire life.

Questions and Answers for week one Let. It. Go.

I am a few days late in posting my first week of Let It Go OBS.  
This post is Melissa's assignment questions for my notebook or journal.  I did write them in my notebook, but I also want to post them here. In case I want to share them at some point in the future.

Q1.    Which reflection verse spoke to you most this week?  How were you able to apply it to your life?

The verse that spoke to me this week was Col. 3:23.   "What ever you do, work at it with all your heart, as working for the Lord, not for men."

 A1.   What ever I do, whether house work, cooking, relating to my husband, relating to my children, family and friends; I will try to handle it as if I do it for God; to please God and to make Him famous.  So that, when others see me in action they will give God the credit.

Q2.    What is the difference between trusting God and believing in

A2.    Anyone can believe in God, we see His handy work everyday.  But to trust God means to totally surrender ourselves into His care.  By making decisions based on what makes God famous to those around us.  To glorify God is to surrendering  our desire to look out for ourselves and not allow God to lead us.  When we don't trust God, we put ourselves above Him.

Q3.    Are you tired of trying to control things/people around you?  
Are you exhausted trying to keep up a good front?  How will
you be able to change these patterns?

A3.    Yes, I am tired of trying to control things/people around me and of trying to keep up a good front.  I need to have a plumb line to begin to make these changes, to bring God the glory.  I need to do this by committing myself to daily time in God's presence.

Q4.    What is the difference between a tool, toy and a tangent? 
Give an example of each in your life.

A4.    Tools help us in life. Toys help us relieve the stresses of this life.  Tangents are what happens when we use a tool or a toy to the extreme.  When we over do it and use up our time with things that are unfruitful; accomplishing nothing of value, That thing becomes a tangent.
          An example of a tool in my life could be the internet.  I can search sites that can help me learn many useful things.  For example, this past holiday season I had access via the internet to find crochet and knit patterns that I could use to create lovely gifts for family and friends.  And now I am able to use the internet for the very Bible Study.
           An example of a toy in my life could be my Kindle Fire, which my husband gave to me as a gift a year or so ago.  I have a few game apps installed and I can choose from them to play for a few minutes of relaxation.
            An example of a tangent would be spending hours surfing the net, reading blogs or watching videos of trivial content. Or just spending too much time online. I use to be that way with Facebook. Recently I have limited my self to a few posts of interest. Spending less time on my Facebook page.  And I have been participating in this online Bible Study Facebook Group.

So these are my answers to Melissa's questions for week 1, excluding the last question.  I wanted to give that a separate post on my blog because it took a lot of thought.

Wednesday, February 6, 2013

My New Blog

This is my first post on my new blog.  I have created this blog to journal my reflections on my spiritual  journey. I will use this blog  to answer questions from the online Bible studies that I participate in.  And to participate in the weekly blog hop related to the On Line Bible Studies I am taking.